[News] My Father Died Alone in Gaza
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My Father Died Alone in Gaza
There are No Checkpoints in Heaven
By RAMZY BAROUD
I still vividly remember my father's face - wrinkled, apprehensive,
warm - as he last wished me farewell fourteen years ago. He stood
outside the rusty door of my family's home in a Gaza refugee camp
wearing old yellow pyjamas and a seemingly ancient robe. As I hauled
my one small suitcase into a taxi that would take me to an Israeli
airport an hour away, my father stood still. I wished he would go
back inside; it was cold and the soldiers could pop up at any moment.
As my car moved on, my father eventually faded into the distance,
along with the graveyard, the water tower and the camp. It never
occurred to me that I would never see him again.
I think of my father now as he was that day. His tears and his
frantic last words: "Do you have your money? Your passport? A jacket?
Call me the moment you get there. Are you sure you have your
passport? Just check, one last time"
My father was a man who always defied the notion that one can only be
the outcome of his circumstance. Expelled from his village at the age
of 10, running barefoot behind his parents, he was instantly
transferred from the son of a landowning farmer to a penniless
refugee in a blue tent provided by the United Nations in Gaza. Thus,
his life of hunger, pain, homelessness, freedom-fighting, love,
marriage and loss commenced.
The fact that he was the one chosen to quit school to help his father
provide for his now tent-dwelling family was a huge source of stress
for him. In a strange, unfamiliar land, his new role was going into
neighboring villages and refugee camps to sell gum, aspirin and other
small items. His legs were a testament to the many dog bites he
obtained during these daily journeys. Later scars were from the
shrapnel he acquired through war.
As a young man and soldier in the Palestinian unit of the Egyptian
army, he spent years of his life marching through the Sinai desert.
When the Israeli army took over Gaza following the Arab defeat in
1967, the Israeli commander met with those who served as police
officers under Egyptian rule and offered them the chance to continue
their services under Israeli rule. Proudly and willingly, my young
father chose abject poverty over working under the occupier's flag.
And for that, predictably, he paid a heavy price. His two-year-old
son died soon after.
My oldest brother is buried in the same graveyard that bordered my
father's house in the camp. My father, who couldn't cope with the
thought that his only son died because he couldn't afford to buy
medicine or food, would be found asleep near the tiny grave all
night, or placing coins and candy in and around it.
My father's reputation as an intellectual, his passion for Russian
literature, and his endless support of fellow refugees brought him
untold trouble with the Israeli authorities, who retaliated by
denying him the right to leave Gaza.
His severe asthma, which he developed as a teenager was compounded by
lack of adequate medical facilities. Yet, despite daily coughing
streaks and constantly gasping for breath, he relentlessly negotiated
his way through life for the sake of his family. On one hand, he
refused to work as a cheap laborer in Israel. "Life itself is not
worth a shred of one's dignity," he insisted. On the other, with all
borders sealed except that with Israel, he still needed a way to
bring in an income. He would buy cheap clothes, shoes, used TVs, and
other miscellaneous goods, and find a way to transport and sell them
in the camp. He invested everything he made to ensure that his sons
and daughter could receive a good education, an arduous mission in a
place like Gaza.
But when the Palestinian uprising of 1987 exploded, and our camp
became a battleground between stone-throwers and the Israeli army,
mere survival became Dad's over-riding concern. Our house was the
closest to the Red Square, arbitrarily named for the blood spilled
there, and also bordered the 'Martyrs' Graveyard'. How can a father
adequately protect his family in such surroundings? Israeli soldiers
stormed our house hundreds of times; it was always him who somehow
held them back, begging for his children's safety, as we huddled in a
dark room awaiting our fate. "You will understand when you have your
own children," he told my older brothers as they protested his
allowing the soldiers to slap his face. Our 'freedom-fighting' dad
struggled to explain how love for his children could surpass his own
pride. He grew in my eyes that day.
It's been fourteen years since I last saw my father. As none of his
children had access to isolated Gaza, he was left alone to fend for
himself. We tried to help as much as we could, but what use is money
without access to medicine? In our last talk he said he feared he
would die before seeing my children, but I promised that I would find
a way. I failed.
Since the siege on Gaza, my father's life became impossible. His
ailments were not 'serious' enough for hospitals crowded with
limbless youth. During the most recent Israeli onslaught, most
hospital spaces were converted to surgery wards, and there was no
place for an old man like my dad. All attempts to transfer him to the
better equipped West Bank hospitals failed as Israeli authorities
repeatedly denied him the required permit.
"I am sick, son, I am sick," my father cried when I spoke to him two
days before his death. He died alone on March 18, waiting to be
reunited with my brothers in the West Bank. He died a refugee, but a
proud man nonetheless.
My father's struggle began 60 years ago, and it ended a few days ago.
Thousands of people descended to his funeral from throughout Gaza,
oppressed people that shared his plight, hopes and struggles,
accompanying him to the graveyard where he was laid to rest. Even a
resilient fighter deserves a moment of peace.
Ramzy Baroud teaches mass communication at Curtin University of
Technology and is the author of
<http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/ASIN/0745325475/counterpunchmaga>The
Second Palestinian Intifada: A Chronicle of a People's Struggle. He
is also the editor-in-chief of PalestineChronicle.com. He can be
contacted at:
<mailto:editor at palestinechronicle.com>editor at palestinechronicle.com
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